Monday, April 13, 2009

Balance



How do u find a balance between what u want to do in life and what you ought to do in life?

I have a sister (the most talented of the rest) who is strong, intelligent, beautiful and manages to strive under any circumstances and walk out the best. She landed a job in very high acclaimed corporate company and was pulling in some big bucks, didn’t suit her fancy…so she moved on. Found projects to work on, did an excellent job, was offered a permanent position….didn’t suit her fancy, so she moved on.

Last year, she went for a permaculture course in the US, had a blast of a time- and she came back a different person all together. She is now living in a farm house in Batu Arang running her own permaculture course. Mud filled hands, dirty clothes, organic soap (that really dusnt do justice to her hair or skin), rat bitten hair, blisters on the souls of her feet and not to mention “not getting any”- all from farming and working on the land.

He land is gifting her with beautiful vegetables, fresh fish and embun pagi. I swear she aged at least 3 years within the past month, and shez so out of touch from the rest of the world- but I have to say, I have never seen her more content with herself and where she is in my life. There is really nothing more that she could ask for, she is exactly where she wants to be.

So, im guessing it took her courage to break away from the usual stereotype. Pay your loans, support your family, buy a house, get insurance, get a car, buy your loved ones presents, give back to charity, go travelling…… theres just too many things at stake in exchange for doing something that you want to do.
We are not selfish if we choose to live our passion, there is always a way to strive if we believe that we shall be great someday. And so you shall, be great someday… and till that day comes, I will be here, buying you your favorite snacks when you have your womanly (or whats left of it) cravings.

I too wish to run off to Africa live with the zebras, swim with the dolphins and touch the white lion’s mane, kiss the tail of a whale, play with children, sing with the old, dance with the crippled. Waiting patiently is no sweat, if you believe that it WILL happen, just not now.

So I guess my balance is faith in myself.

Beloved One

We have both been here before
Knockin upon loves door
Begging for someone to let us in
Knowing this we can agree to keep each other company
Never to go down that road again

My beloved one,
my beloved oneYour eyes shine through me
You are so divine to me
Your heart has a home in mine
We wont have to say a word
With a touch all shall be heard
When I search my heart its you I find

My beloved one, my beloved one, my beloved one
You were meant for me,
I believe you were sent to me from a dream straight intoTo my arms
Hold your body close to me
You mean the most to me
We will keep each other safe from harm

My beloved one, my beloved one, my beloved one

-Ben Harper-